Hold on to Your Dream

suomi answers

2006-04-21T01:01:26Z

01. Stratovarius – “Visions”

04. Stratovarius – “Destiny”

05. Timo Tolkki – “Soldier’s Prayer”

06. Avenged Sevenfold – “Bat Country”

07. Kalmah – “Tordah”

09. Sonata Arctica – “Fade to Black” (Metallica cover, but I also have the original, of course)

11. Stratovarius – “Fight!!!”

12. Timo Tolkki – “Fire Dance Suite”

14. Stratovarius – “Distant Skies”

16. Wintersun – “Winter Madness”

17. Kalmah – “Doubtful About It All”

18. Stratovarius – “We Hold the Key”

19. Kotipelto – “Around”

- M

Try your luck.

2006-04-15T04:46:15Z

This was too much fun to pass up doing a second time.

Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever on random.
Step 2: Post a line from the first 20 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 5: No cheating.

Here’s a hint: I always post the first four or so lines of the song. It gets me through this faster because if I listened to more, this would take an hour, I swear to God.

- Stratovarius – “Atlantis” (instrumental -

01. I have seen the future of mankind
a wisdom of my prophecies you’ll find
follow the truth and be careful, are we the last?

Sonata Arctica - "Peacemaker"
02. You've got the wings of a fallen angel
You offer peace if they praise your name
You live your life taking everything you can get
Look down, time to fly!

Stratovarius - "Maniac Dance"
03. This year has been a nightmare
I feel so low, I don’t care
I’ve dwelt in depths of darkness
swam across the ocean of pain

04. The times are changing so fast
I wonder how long it lasts
the clock is ticking – time is running out

05. Stars shine bright in the sky
Warning you're gonna die
Freezing wind blows across the snow plains
Here all alone

06. He who makes a beast out of himself
Gets rid of the pain of being a man

Caught here in a fiery blaze, won't lose my will to stay.

I tried to drive all through the night,
The heart stroke ridden weather, the barren empty sights.
No oasis here to see, the sand is singing deathless words to me.

07. I've chosen my way of life I'll drink my every coin
And even if I'm broken I'll drink my homemade moonshine
Until it is all in my head and I will meet my fellows
Those who creep around at nights and will not allow me

Sonata arctica - "The Boy Who Wanted To Be A Real Puppet"
08. So many years ago, many more than I'd
Even care to bear in my mind
From the darkest of all places I found you

09. Life it seems will fade away
drifting farther every day
getting lost within myself
nothing matters, no one else

Sonata Arctica - "Wildfire"
10. Burn honey, burn, let the fire eat away
I never liked the look of this town
Burn it down now
I'll run, they all know what I've done
I fetch my gear and take my leave from this mountain

11. Climbing mountain
Big stone on my back
Hopeless feeling
Everything is black

- Karin teaching me some Dutch on a recorded file -

12. Dancing around the fire
We’ve gathered here tonight
Flames are getting higher
Memories are filling my mind
As I look back through the time
Nothing here to find

Sonata Arctica - "Ain't Your Fairytale"
13. The ones who seek justice,
Will pray for it all their lives...
They can and they will skin us all one day...
Oh can you hear them cries? (Can you hear them cries?)

- Sonata Arctica’s “Jam” session from “Reckoning Night” -

14. Went into the plane
Was scared like hell
Tried to relax for a while
And when we took off
I feared we would fall
Waving goodbye to this life

Children of Bodom - "Downfall"
15. The night of timeless fire is drawing near
I flee... Throughout the years of throe
Watching through a mirror, as I fall apart
I see a wreck, I'm burning

16. Divine creations now destroyed to uncover the haunted atmosphere
Strange visions of the ancient spirits, travesty of man appears
Coldness and the storming winds lurking for prey
The forces of the Winter reign in dreadful way, there's no escape

17. Things move when I'm not watching them
They have their own will
And I don't even feel insane
Because I know I'm ill

18. I’m watching as the morning sun rises
Before my very eyes
Revealing all this beauty
Questions fill my mind once again
Clearing my thoughts
Have I been blind?
Now I see it

19. I feel I’ve seen what I needed to see
Some things would have been better off unseen
What have I learned and how should I feel
When nothing seems to move me or make me cry

Scorpions - "Still Loving You"
20. Time, it needs time
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there

- M

gunslingerm @ 2006-04-13T00:15:00

2006-04-13T04:16:14Z

01. In Flames – Gyroscope (live)

02. In Flames – “Morphing Into Primal”

03. Soilwork – “Stalemate”

06. Kalmah – “Cloned Insanity”

09. Stratovarius – “Legions”

10. In Flames – “Trigger”

11. Stratovarius – “Anthem of the World”

12. In Flames – “Gyroscope”

14. Stratovarius – “Dream With Me”
To her credit, Pahahenki was close!

16. Soilwork – “The Crestfallen”

18.Kalmah – “The Third, the Magical”

- M

Some of you might be able to do this. =P

2006-04-11T02:39:06Z

01. Geology is digging through
my brain
a manta engulfing the world
to throw it up once again
to a guild of a lifted dagger
(live version)

02. Detonation
Fireworks and alchemy
Genes spliced and triggered
into the future
and her organic cave

03. Just pick one and make it all come through
Infiltrated and fucked up for years
And now it just suddenly turns to you
In a second, in no time
Rise up, get up, stay up, fed up
With the brand new sensation
I'll bring back what's mine

Sonata Arctica - "Shamandalie"
04. In good old times, remember my friend
Moon was so bright and so close to us, sometimes

Kotipelto - "Snowbound"
05. All that I feel now, the things inside
they keep on coming, haunt me ‘till I die
No use in going somewhere to hide
The beauty of life – has it been a lie?

06. You take a frog's eye and give it to a man
Pleased with your cyborg proudly you stand
This glorious madness that is not in gods hands
Makes you believe you're all powerful

Sonata Arctica - "Sing in Silence"
07. You were daddy's girl nice and sweet
Never in trouble mommy's honey
Little child who just couldn't see
The pressure from her so called friends
Was simply too much

Stratovarius - "Hunting High and Low"
08. I feel the wind in my hair
and it's whispering, telling me things
of the storm that is gathering near
full of power, I'm spreading my wings

- Timo Tolkki's “Sunwids” (instrumental) –

- Holy hell, I don't know the lyrics to this, nor can I find them. It's Timo Kotipelto singing “Matkaa Teen” from the Brother Bear soundtrack. I can't phonetically write Finnish! >.< -

09. Far in the core of the earth
First it was given birth
We heard the call, the message was so clear
The tracks were laid for the future to come

10. Have we lost the spark or a guide?
What's the latest on the screen?
Can't be too late to turn around
I need all the help from you

11. The setting sun creates another world
The shadows fall, another day is in the end
The paradise is sleeping peacefully
And one more day is again history

12. Geology is digging through
my brain
a manta engulfing the world
to throw it up once again
to a guild of a lifted dagger

Kotipelto - "Lord of Eternity"
13. Now that your life has come to an end reveal your sins
Anubs will bring the scales of justice
Is your heart as light as the feather of truth soon, we’ll see
an evil heart can't enter heavenly bliss

14. Now it is time for you to close your eyes
They've seen much pain, it's slowly filling your mind
Pretty as they are but now so pale
You better leave all your worries far behind

Wintersun - "Beyond the Dark Sun"
15. ... For years I have traveled in coldness,
but my heart is warm as the darkened sun above me...
Nothing can ever take away
what I've seen with these tired eyes

16. Don't question any lies,
There's no reason to find..
Another trip to cause a denial
Yet you're stripped and your hope is gone
Another trap for you to fall into
You swallow every threat that will enter your mind
Enter your mind!

Stratovarius - "Forever"
17. I stand alone in the darkness
the winter of my life came so fast
memories go back to childhood
to days I still recall

18.I've been searching some answers concealed in my heart
The spirit within
I've been hunting those secrets with my deepest bottle
But have found none

Stratovarius - "Gypsy in Me"
19. I was sent out to the world
on my mission, I just returned
the dust has not settled down yet
still I'm needed, there's more fame to be earned

- Timo Tolkki - "Lord of the Rings" (instrumental) -

- Stratovarius - "Holy Light" (instrumental) -

Stratovarius - "Eagleheart"
20. All through the night, he is lying awake
wondering how much more can he take
watching the wall where the shadows dance
drifting away into a trance

- M

gunslingerm @ 2006-04-05T00:56:00

2006-04-05T05:01:56Z

01.02.03.04.05.06

Beep. Beepbeep BEEP.

2006-04-04T02:40:03Z

Current Music: Stratovarius - Stratovarius
Current Mood: crappy

I'm not sure why I'm playing Wintersun tonight. I've been in random moods all day. =\

I went to bed around 3ish probably and had nightmares. They were horrible. For the first time in six months, Prunty has appeared in my dreams. It was terrible. He was VERY nice to me, probably nicer than he has ever been, and told me he was living with an estranged uncle. He gave me a slip of paper with his phone number on it, saying he had something very important to tell me. I felt like Prunty was in a lot of pain and had closed himself up for a very long time and waited on someone to reveal it to (a lot like his nature). I ached to know more, but he would never say. And then I woke up.

Tomorrow, I'm changing my alarm. Before, I had Stratovarius in there. But there's something a little unnerving to wake up to "Maniac Dance".

Beep. Beepbeep BEEP. Beepbeep BEEP. Beepbeep beep BEEP beep beep
beep. Beepbeep BEEP. Beep beep beep. Beep beep BEEP beep beepbeep. Beep beepbeep. Beep beep BEEP. Beepbeep BEEP beep beep. BEEP beep beep beepbeepbeepbeepbeepbeep beepbeepbeepbeep.

Everyone that knows how "Maniac Dance" sounds is probably laughing their maniacle little heads off right now. That was HARD to do. I actually had to sit down and think about how to phonetically type that. I just illustrated a melody with words only emphasizing with caps. I think I deserve a trophy.

Or an autograph. Just whichever is more accessible for you guys.

Okay, nevermind. I'm playing Stratovarius instead of Wintersun now. And I promise no screen caps from the video.

So, where was I? Nightmares. Prunty. BeepbeepBEEP. School.

I got ready in a hurry and saw that Karin and Eve have written me. Terrific. More e-mails to write back on a busy day! I'm on it.

There was no Writer's Guild meeting, I imagine. I went and nobody was there (except Denita waiting on Dr. Phillips). SO, I ran into Whitney and ate a sandwich with her in the student lounge. That was quite awesome. Unplanned stuff is really cool. =)

BeepbeepBEEPbeepbeepbeep . . .

After she left, I planned to do a little working out before Types. Well, (I finally learned his name, so rock!) Matt asked me in the hall if I have any moral objection to listening to burned CDs. Thoughtful question! I honestly have not downloaded since the torrent got me I think it was either Follow the Reaper or Operation: Mindcrime. He offered to burn me some Guardian (woohoo!) and other Nightwish (double woohoo).

We ended up talking about metal for I don't know how long. Just about different bands, who broke up, who didn't, how festivals go (by the way, Smifli, I forgot we have ProgPower festival Timo came to that last year I think it was and didn't sing, but watched and he liked it. Yes!) Then the Rules of Power Metal came up and that other one about a knight saving a princess but in different metal ways. I posted that on here and forgot where it was now. =\ And then the most interesting things were like, Rhapsody, Manowar, and Hammerfall and if you should take those guys seriously (and if they take themselves seriously!). Hahaha. That was hilarious. Yay for similar interests.

BeepBEEPbeepbeepbeepbeep beepbeepbeepbeep.

You know what I find interesting? People who talk to me say, "I need to listen to Stratovarius more." HA! That's not exactly my goal or advocacy in life, but you know, what could it hurt? Pahahenki has that same effect on me with Bodom (and Becky with Sonata, etc, etc). =)

Needless to say, beep, I didn't go to work out before Types. Class lasted about forty-five minutes or more. Blah, that's okay, though. No annoying kids. BEEP!

Lifting ended up being pretty enjoyable. There is some major progress and good ideas on how to push without really punishing myself. I also came up with a system for the cycle (for those of you paying attention you've noticed I haven't done it in a while). I'll go a mile only, but advance the resistance. Today I did it in 5:49 on resistance 14. I think I'll get a mile up until resistance 20 (HARDCORE!) and then go back to like, 13 with 2 miles, etc as long as all the times are under say, 10 minutes or a good epic song. Today, it had to be "A Million Light Years Away". Blah, ballads. =P

It's come to my attention my entries are getting god-awful long. Well, I was going to be short tonight and I failed miserably. "Maniac Dance" makes me hyper.

Beepbeep BEEP.

Came home, ate dinner, showered, spent too much time with e-mails, etc, then ran out to Film As Art basically against my will. Oh, that was bad. A bad quiz on things we hadn't been asked to study, watching clips from "Citizen Kane", and basically being annoying for three hours while I didn't feel well.

I feel better now, though. My CD went through another adventure, though.
My Episode CD that endured the "time has stood still" clock crash, complete with batteries in tub had taken on another caper. I was in the bathroom, listening to Dreamspace (some of you know why), and while I decided to take Episode out, it fell in between the cracks of the hamper and the wall. I thought it was over. Gone. Kaput. Khattam-shud. Well, I tried to stick an envelope back there, pushing it around and felt nothing. I lifted the lid and realized I could see the envelope! So, I went downstairs to the laundry room and there laid Episode, face up, as if to say, "Miss me?"

I'm convinced this album has 9 lives.

Beep.

Well, that's where we are now. I'm too tired to do the Scientology rant! Crap! I was prepared to be brief tonight. I should really get to know myself. I'm extremely ticked off that all of these feelings and memories came out of nowhere. His birthday is in two weeks and maybe that triggered it. I really don't know. Maybe this will be gone in a week. But it couldn't be sooner.

Until then, something nice:

Yep. I like this a lot. I don't really have any more right now. Some that I'll share tomorrow. I'm just so bloody tired.

Maybe I'll do the beeps (keys) in the beginning of "Gypsy in Me".

Maybe tomorrow.

Goodnight, everybody. Beepbeep BEEP.

- M

from beaches

2006-04-02T04:29:26Z

Current Music: Cake - Fashion Nugget
Current Mood: happy

No joke there, I really am playing Cake. I'm not much for April Fool's gags.

To be honest, I was surprised nothing happened on the forums today. I checked my usuals and I didn't see anything too outrageous. I really wanted us to get back at those guys who said Kotipelto got caught with drugs on Innocent's Day and nobody tried anything! I think they just felt so bad we all got upset about it that we find it's punishment enough. Such a great family, the metal community.

I wanted to share this with Pahahenki when it hit me last night, but I haven't talked to her on MSN in a while. So, if anyone cares about Janne or Strato (or if you're Pahahenki), you can read the rest of this paragraph. I was thinking last night about Janne's statement about Strato's "publicity stunts". I remember Kotipelto was interviewed about Tolkki's behavior (after they reunited) and he said "I thought he was an asshole, so I treated him like one." He was unaware of Tolkki's condition (like many of us were) at the time, and since I figure Janne is closer to Koti than Tolkki, he only heard one side. Of course if you hear your friend's argument without the other side, you'd believe it, too. If he was Tolkki's friend and not Kotipelto's, he'd probably think Koti was the asshole (or maybe was clueless about Tolkki, too). Either way, I'm not mad at Janne anymore, but I just thought of that somehow last night because I've got nothing better to do with my life.

I left off this evening before I left (I came back to finish the survey tonight). I went to dinner with Liz at Red Lobster. John was with us and her friends Joe, Jeremy, and Christie joined us. I knew they stopped by her house, but I didn't know they were coming. Then her other two friends Scott and Stacey came. We had a really, really great dinner. I tried stuffed flounder and it tasted so good! I'd never had flounder. I wanted to try that or rainbow trout (still a little afraid of that for some reason). So, that was totally awesome.

When the night wound down, Liz handed me a gift bag and asked for a drum roll. (It occurred to me later tonight she could have pulled a WICKED April Fool's on me.) Inside the bag was a pair of Snoopy pants, a blue candle, and a little hibiscus purse. She had invited me to come to the beach with her and her friends!!!

ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! \m/

I've never been to a beach, for those of you who have failed to share in my ecstasy. I am so excited. I had asked to go if John couldn't, but I figured mom wouldn't let me or Liz didn't have room for me. So, I let it kind of go in the back of my mind. Now I can go! I am thrilled out of my mind! I'm really going to get in shape now!!!

Here's where we'll be staying:

Like I wouldn't do an April Fool's on you guys?!?! Just ONE?! That has TIMO IN IT?! IDIOTS! =P

No, really. Here's the place we're staying for the last week of July.

So, I am quite happy! Sweet dreams to me after all that I've seen. =)

Goodnight, everybody! =)

- M

Morning musings

2006-03-27T16:00:42Z

Current Music: Timo Tolkki - Hymn to Life
Current Mood: happy

I've got about three hours until school. I'm sitting here, recovering from a breakfast of donuts (sans drugs, go me), in my pajamas, and updating le iPod.

The web cam works! Well, I think I need to find different plugs for headphone portion, but Whitney and I had a little video conference on MSN last night. That is, after constantly testing with Ashley and Craig. Haha. But, I didn't want to waste all this time trying to figure out when Karin and I contact each other. I'm not sure if she has a web cam, but I know she has a mic. So, that works for me! \m/

Eve sent me an e-mail this morning (complete with address - yes!) and a Warmen song "Puppet" that Timo did (of course). I used to have lots of non-Timo Warmen stuff on the old compy and lost it. =\ I'll have to hit some people up for some files. Anyway, the song is good and appropriate for the current political discussion we have going on at the forum. It's hard being an American there (but Guinevere and AMBR help a lot) and I realize how selfish and sheltered we are. I guess it's a good thing I learn now (in addition to the college experience).

At any rate, that's too heavy thinking for right now. I haven't had lyrics up here in a LONG, LONG time and I've been wrestling with ideas in my head. So, here's two.

I feel the pressure building up
I've been waiting for the sign
Will it come?
Will it be something divine?
Another day has just begun
Still my mind's empty nothing's done
Should I run away from the city?
Or go to the bar and have some fun

Once again I need to find the spark
I will search all night long
Even though I need to wonder in the dark
I know I have to finish this song

The day is over the paper's empty
I have to ask advice from Mr. Beer
He shows me some of his visions
And suddenly everything is so clear

Once again I need to find the spark
I will search all night long
Even though I need to wonder in the dark
I know I have to finish this song

Once again I need to find the spark
I will search all night long
Even though I need to wonder in the dark
I know I have to finish this song

by Timo Kotipelto. Story of my life . . . only with less drinking involved.

Looking inside of myself
I feel the rainbow of emotions
running wild in an open sea
Garden of my soul
Icy cage of my heart
Golden key which opens
the way to paradise

So far away yet so close
Lies the cradle of my freedom

Every step I take
Every move I make
Finally, now I understand

Everything is clear
There is no more fear
Finally, now I understand

Seeds that I'm planting today
Will be the fruits that
I will pick up tomorrow in my life
It is not easy to change
Courage and wisdom are my partners
sailing on the sea of eternity

So far away yet so close
Lies the cradle of my freedom

Every step I take
Every move I make
Finally, now I understand

Everything is clear
There is no more fear
Finally, now I understand

Story of my life to come. Less drinking at last!

Now I feel so much better. Well, one thing is missing.

Looks about right to me! =)

Okay, now it's time to get ready, practice, read, and some other things before class. Once at school, it's lunch, class, exercising, and whatever else damage I can cause. I'm ready . . .

- M

I have to.

2006-03-18T04:15:11Z

Current Music: Wintersun - Wintersun
Current Mood: irritated

Doing things in a bit of a reverse order tonight. I put tonight's picture in first so I could look at it for encouragement.

Rough day.

Well, I woke up kinda late and was pouncing around sites and somehow wanted to look up something on the Finnish metal site. Then they reviewed the Finnish Metal Expo, so I decided to read about what they said about KOTIPELTO, since that's really the only group I knew and was interested in. The people left halfway through his gig since it was the last one of the night. >.< I've heard Timo did a good job, though, as usual. *cough* perfectionist *cough*. But, still. I love the writers for the site and I wanted to read the review. But, whatever. That's where this picture is from, too. He looks so tall. (But we know the truth).

An e-mail I received this morning (somehow) was for a writing contest. I feel haunted now.

I'm wrapping up the project tonight with everyone. I got some really nice messages today and I'm glad to see all of that falling into place.

I messed around today and worked out. That didn't go very well. But I haven't lifted here at home in a very long time, so I guess that's expected. And the last time I did it at school was a week ago, so, not good. And I went for a run. It was really too bloody cold for that. My lungs are not very happy. I will probably never run under 45 degrees again. It's just not really all that healthy for me.

Before that run, though, Kaleb called me. He was telling me all this stuff like he's concerned I'm shutting myself down and not trying to be more independent. I've accepted that I've shut down completely, but I don't know what else to do. What am I to do? Ride a bus somehow or take a taxi? It just doesn't work like that. And I can't go to any school I want. My parents don't want me to and since they're my [only] source of income, I really can't rebel against that. How much would I love to get a doctorate in English and maybe teach or have some really crappy 5-figure job and write freelance, but I don't know. *scrolls down to see Timo* I don't think I'm made for that.

I mean, all I want is an education. I have this very childlike belief that if I pursue it, things will fall into place for me for following my heart. Everyone sees this comparison coming, but Koti went to school to learn engineering for a year and hated it. He went to the conservatory when he joined Stratovarius and studied there about five years. He didn't even graduate (darn, that's a check off the list). He's so successful (in the last five years, anyway) that he can live off of this and not give singing lessons. I think that's the most inspiring story of all. For crying out loud, his little brother is a doctor. Imagine Christmas at the Kotipelto household!"I saved a hundred lives this year." "Yeah, well, your brother can live off his gold album." Hahahaha. I have sad goals.

In all honesty, I know I talk about Timo kind of as an unrealistic comparison. Actually, the person who inspires me the most is Pahahenki. I just think she's the greatest person in the world. She had a pretty hard childhood and worked hard to go to school clear in Toronto. Now she's working on going to Helsinki. She has just so much fervor and persistence I can't help but be amazed and sit back to watch. I really cannot imagine myself with that amount of enthusiasm and passion. It's really a joy for me to listen to her talk about what she wants to do. I don't know if she ever really knew that . . .

This whole thing came out of nowhere for me and I feel really overwhelmed. Kaleb is concerned that people are writing me off because I have this negative vibe going on. I aware I'm not one of those happy cripples on TV who act like they're not just the slightest bit dead or bitter inside because they're imperfect. Don't feed me that crap that a guy in a wheelchair is never once upset about how he can't do things other people can. And I yearn to be normal like any other human being on this planet. I'm not going to put on that fake smile for everybody. With my best of friends, I can come to terms and make fun of myself, laugh at myself, and let them say what they want because I love them and have mutual respect for their imperfections. I willingly use "blind girl" and other such grossly politically incorrect terms and allow my friends this liberty. But God help someone who comes along and doesn't know what it was like to have my childhood. Am I the only person who's suffered? No, but don't walk in acting like you can sum it up in an afterschool special.

What's left for me to do? Run away and get an apartment in downtown Parkersburg? Get barefoot and pregnant by 25? I don't want that life. I was comfortable here. Maybe I'm not supposed to be comfortable anymore. Maybe this is the precipice to growing up like all my friends have done, years ahead of me. Where are the friends of my yesterday, have they moved on with their lives? Can we still laugh and joke about things like before?

I've just recovered from this self-realization as an artist because of Dillinger and I honestly wasn't prepared for another deconstructive exercise. I do want to mature and grow and someday be independent, but I don't see my surroundings yielding to that. Or am I not seeing the picture for what it is? What if I really have blinded myself to my options this early in life? My parents said I do all an adult can, but why can't I feel comfortable? Why do I feel so God damned alone sometimes? And not even in that religious sense because I am confident in my spirituality (and sexuality, because that's an important affirmation in this life as well). Where do we go from here?

This Timo picture is putting a bunch of Stratovarius lyrics in here. It's also possible that I'm just thinking in lyrics like I always do. It's just more obvious now.

I'm really not trying to be all dramatic like I'm the only person with problems. In fact, I am well aware that I have nurturing surroundings. My home life is comfortable, I don't worry about money, I have very good friends, and school is somewhat manageable. One thing just always has to screw it up for me.

I do sincerely thank each and every one of my friends. Some of you have even offered to help me learn how to live in the city, crossing roads, taking buses, basically doing adult things and the gesture is so genuine and empathetic, it's painful for me to take for granted such kindness in this world. My forum friends have treated me as an equal, saying they are amazed that I can do what I can. If only I could share in their awe.

It is all about perspective. I've been looking through a kaleidoscope for many years. I have shut my eyes down and let my ears do all of the work for me. But this has to be the moment when things take a turn. There's much more to life than this.

Well, that is basically where my mind is. I've discovered myself as an artist and now I've got to do something so much harder. I have to follow my heart, don't know what I'm searching for.

Damn you, Kotipelto! Damn you, Dillinger! Damn you, Tolkki! And damn you, Pahahenki. Without these people, I would not even be thinking right now. But I know that I have to.

I know I have to. Because even now I feel my life is going by at the speed of light.

- M

Hyvää syntymäpäivää, Timo Kotipelto!

2006-03-15T03:55:42Z

Current Music: Kotipelto - Waiting for the Dawn
Current Mood: hyvää

Hyvää syntymäpäivää, Timo Kotipelto!

Oh, yes, I've been waiting and thinking of the pictures I wanted to put up today. Well, I can't pick. So I'm doing them all.

Timo at work:.
Making the album.

"Vocal tent"

Critiquing Mirka's "nice touch"

Telling everyone what to do.

Rock.

Filming the video.

"Black Diamond"

"Hunting High and Low"

"Eagleheart" filming.

"Maniac Dance"

"Reasons"

Timo in the backseat . . . !!! =)

Making of Coldness documentary.

Promotional work.

Press releases or what have you . . . white boy.

A salsa album? I'll think about it . . .

INFINITE

Promotional pictures.

Coldness

\Waiting for the Dawn

"Eagleheart"/Elements"

No idea. I think Fourth Dimension.

INTERMISSION

Touring (on a crusade!) \m/

. . .

Searching for a meter of space . . .

Viking sleep.

Before the show:

I was going to wear that shirt, Timo. What an ASS!

Mmmmm . . .

Warming up (after you kick everyone out).

Ear monitor.

Kotipelto on stage

Always a musician . . .

A or A Minor?

Stick to chords . . .

(He thinks he can play keys.)

And bass, too, now, apparently.

That's more like it! Stay in your place. =)

Offstage . . .
With fans.

I kept this because his arm is ***ing HUGE!

I'm trying to decide what he's doing with his left eye here.

~~*twitch*~~

The last two pictured women sustained minor injuries in local hospitals. You can check my cell phone - I wasn't there, man. I wasn't.

Autographs.

=)

Having a beer . . .

+ Jens.

+ Toni Kakko

+ . . . Uh, plush elk.

6 coronas later.

16 coronas later.

66 coronas later.

OUT OF BEER!!!

Running into some bad times . . .

Blehhhhhhhhhhhhh . . .

This audience can't sing worth crap!

Making of Coldness . . .

He is the MAN! VodkaVikingKoti!!! Sissu, mies.

But still a prankster!

Hey, look at this douchebag Marku over here!

Blahhhhhhhhhhh'!

Making us smile, laugh, and cry with music. \m/

- M

My 22 Facts of Life

2006-03-10T05:55:27Z

Current Music: Stratovarius - Visions
Current Mood: relieved

I've been meaning to do this for . . . *checks calendar* a month? Wow, ouch. Yeah, "things came up".

Anyway, here's a random list of 22 things I learned in the last year about myself and life in general. Oh, this will be fun.

1. Everyone has their own obsession. Even the most mild-mannered person can be driven to homicide if you press the right buttons. Preferably religion, politics, or sex. (For some of us, it's music).
2. Contrary to popular (and behavioral) belief, things WILL and DO come up when you have an assignment or project at hand. No procrastinator is safe.
3. No matter how precise you are, your defined terms will never match someone else's.
4. Interest in something can begin with either the smallest introduction or total abuse if it's done by someone close enough to you. (Ex: I hated Inuyasha until I started watching it online while talking to Whitney. Or thinking Kotipelto isn't ugly. One day, you guys will find him moderately attractive. I know; it happened to me.)
5. If you work harder at something you're not even good at, you'll appreciate progress even more.
6. Don't piss off n00bs. It's not worth your time, although they believe it is.
7. The corny expression IS true: you must love yourself first to be loved. I've seen this work and I'm the biggest pessimist in the world.
8. Judge the artist by their art - not by their image or what they say (even about their own art).
9. If a project is too daunting and difficult to get started, clean. THOROUGHLY clean. A change and some refreshing atmosphere opens up the mind. That, or light a crapload of candles to mask the smell.
10. Did I mention everyone has their own obsession?
11. Read your freaking e-mails. Some people take it personally.
12. Believe and practice in daily meditation. Listen to a song that never gets old (“PARADISE”!), post up your favorite picture in a place you look every day, or just engage in something relaxing. Clearing the mind makes a more nurturing environment for revelations, epiphanies, or just pleasant thoughts as opposed to focused concentration.
13. Learning another language is a beautiful thing. It can also come in handy to look condescending around people you don't want to deal with anymore.
14. In the matters of physical health: If all else fails, drink water.
15. Absolutes are for idealists, philosophers, and religious fanatics and zealots.
16. I guarantee you will live a richer, fuller life if you listen to the Stratovarius song "Infinity" just once. It is a perfect song. Epic. From the best album they ever did, from the best TOUR they ever did. The vocals are gorgeous, guitar is beautiful, bass is perfect, keys are entrancing, and the drums are absolutely full of power.
17. When you think about a chore or task, do it immediately.
18. Never underestimate Finland.
19. Being "in" love isn't the question - getting back out, burying the past, and moving on, and knowing how to do it is.
20. And listen to "Paradise". That's a good song, too.
21. Anyone can wear "gay Finnish pants". But it is a skill to wear self-respect at the same time.
22. End a bombed story with, "And that's the origin of the restraining order."

- M

Let me sing this Hymn to Life

2006-03-07T04:07:18Z

Current Music: Timo Tolkki - Hymn to Life
Current Mood: upbeat

IT'S NOT METAL!!!

I. Love. Timo. Tolkki. Yeah, it came today. I ripped open the package, ran upstairs, put it in my personal CD player and laid on my bed for a solid hour, doing nothing other than listening than reading lyrics.

It was really a roller coaster of emotions. The screaming, Michael Kiske, his very conversational lyrics (different from Stratovarius and not Elements, thank God), a good hard cry in "Little Boy, I Miss You", some revulsion in "Father", and some major revelations in the following songs, followed by a swelling of pride in "Hymn to Life".

When I got Kotipelto's last album, I went through all the songs and talked about the artists involved, and what songs were best, etc. I had heard that album at least five times by then. But in this case, Tolkki did all of the work himself (save some keys and guest vocals) and I really need a few more spins of this record.

I am not disappointed in the least with this rock album. Tolkki has some versatility (And guess what? That scream in "Shattered"? He can still do that.) and really good introspective work. I think he and Koti's voices are too good for the distortion box, but God love them both for talent. Tolkki has a great voice and it really fits this genre well (and the EARLY Strato albums as well).

Like I said, I need a few more listens. I'm going through random songs now, but it's very good. I am still a hardcore Kotipelto fan 100%, but Tolkki's work really proves him as a guitar virtuoso (first record) and a damn good songwriter and vocalist (HtL). Did I mention he produces as well? =)

So, long story short (or is that too late?), Tolkki is still the greatest.

How adorable is that? Anyway . . .

I had this nightmare last night this new girl was making sandwiches where I normally buy lunch and held up four people. That made me late for the Writer's Guild meeting and I missed seeing Dillinger and everyone hated me, taking it personally! It was bad.

When I woke up this morning, I checked mail, sent some messages, got ready, and almost requested an Avenged Sevenfold song to the radio, but someone already did! Everything made me happy. =)

As it turns out, the nightmare scenario almost happened! Emily and I were talking shortly before that and an obnoxious guy in the nearby Bake Sale was annoying me, so I said we'd talk later. I turned out being late for the meeting, but only three others were there. Dillinger sat at the end of the table, busy filling out papers and kind of mumbling. So, I took my seat and had chatter with everybody until we were ready to start.

Oh, I'm so running out of time here. And I've got some serious pain going on, but I'll keep pressing on here. So, he joined us in discussing things for a while and it led into this pep talk that to be writers, we should take it seriously and start publishing. He mentioned a lot of contests and ideas on how to fund submitting them (and other ways to help). I really liked everything that he had to say about writing and so on. I actually feel a bit inspired to return to a story I got a number of compliments on. Hopefully, this doesn't sound fake to anybody . . . I mean, let's be honest, it was fun to be there. =)

Brenda and I had a good talk that I really enjoyed. Types actually wasn't too bad, either. I did my essay and genuinely took my time. It's the first time in a while I felt comfortable writing and it was almost shocking. I guess today just really gave me a lift. I don't know what it is. Jon left thirty minutes into the mid-term and I didn't even notice.

Gaston and I talked a little bit and I wandered off to exercise. I probably worked out a bit too hard, really. But, I was feeling quite powerful (but self-conscious, of course). I guess you take good and bad. =)

As I said, I listened to the album when I got home and went out to Film As Art. I really felt like skipping, but I'm glad I didn't. We covered a lot of things and it proved to be quite bearable. My back feels a little better every day.

My time is running out, so I'll leave with this gorgeous picture of Kotipelto. Is there no greater smile in the world?

Not a one.

- M

I have to follow my heart / Don't know what I'm looking for

2006-03-05T05:34:53Z

There's this air around me today that is very heavy and depressing. I can't pinpoint exactly why I'm so down today. It's been this whole past week that I have been sleeping irregularly with nightmares and even having these horrific "daydreams" or flashes. And then, there are these other times when I only think of Timo.

There must be a number of factors that lead to this emotion. I haven't played music in almost a year now. And perhaps Journalism has finally taken a toll on me. This afternoon I found myself trying to figure out the bus schedule just so I could get out of the house for a few hours in shops I've never visited or walking streets I've never crossed. I'm convinced I need a new surrounding. Some initiative can do a world of good.

Lately, I've become increasingly concerned with what I'm going to do with my life as far as art and employment. Not to mention, there's much more to life than this. But, I have to work on one thing at a time.

I've barely spoken all day. I feel very sick and broken. Even the simplest assignment seems too advanced for me to start. Could something permanently be wrong with me? Am I finally burned out? Or is my home life too stable to give me a reason to escape and do well in schoolwork? I really wish I knew so I could fix the problem. Though fixing it could create another one that could even be more severe.

Things will make sense soon enough. But I should not just wait for the answers. Like the phoenix I rise . . .

- M

Hyvää syntymäpäivää, Timo Tolkki!

2006-03-02T20:44:35Z

Just in case I'm not here at 6pm, Hyvää syntymäpäivää, Timo Tolkki!

- M

Snapshot Survey

2006-02-26T17:03:26Z

I've been meaning to do this survey for a very long time. When it came upon the 1-year anniversary, I decided it's finally time. Here is the old one. It's a way to kick off my 22nd birthday, in a sense. Enjoy! =)

I am: the most confident I've ever been.
I was: under the impression that I knew everything.
I have: awareness that perfection is a curse.
I haven't: had a day I've wanted to do over since January 1st.
I want: Timo Kotipelto? =) Actually, I want it to snow more so I can snowboard in my backyard.
(new) I need: independence.
I wish: I were a total badass little viking.
I will: improve physically.
I never: regret what I say.
I always: stutter over myself when trying to execute a good joke, but it's worth it.
I won't: be defeated by petty things.
I can: continue writing without my former Muse.
I can't: admit when I don't know something.
I would: knife the person who stabbed Timo Tolkki in Spain. Moreover, I would be more assertive.
I wouldn't: change my living conditions because the sacrifice for a "better life" seem secondary.
I could: really be a nasty enemy if it came to that.
I couldn't: go a day without music.
I should: probably broaden my horizons a bit in many respects.
I shouldn't: take things so personally!
I forgive: myself first and foremost.
I regret: Nothing! Not one thing because it all brought me here.
I forget: to constantly think outside the box.
I remember: that I used to be brought down by so little. Take a look at me now!

- M

Tomorrow . . .

2006-02-13T06:02:06Z

Current Music: Stratovarius - "Will the Sun Rise?" (live in Athens)
Current Mood: hyvaa

Alright! So, this has been another good day. Too bad I have to return to the daily routine tomorrow.

After watching some Olympics, Liz and John came over and we celebrated my birthday (Part III, I guess). We had some food and I opened presents. I got lots of shirts, a bracelet, some candles, a case for my needles, a stag-handled pocketknife, and a keyboard stand. I guess that really paints a picture of who I am here!

I'm saving my money from Christmas and birthday for Timo Tolkki's Hymn to Life and an mp3 player. Can anyone guess my priorities?!?!

After all the festivities, I watched more games and basically did nothing. I probably should have studied some poli sci, but I didn't! Tomorrow, I'll get back to work. Seriously.

Special thanks to everyone who left me special entries, files, Koti pictures, and all that jazz! It has been one of the best birthdays that I can remember. That's a great feeling! I don't know what I'll do next year. =)

How great is this?

Hoorah! How great are his arms?! GOALS, people, GOALS!!!

Oh, man, if I weren't so tired, I'd have a better caption for this . . .

I flew over here and there's no beer? Please.

Okay, it's time to sleep. Thanks again, everybody, and I'll see you tomorrow! =)

- M

02/04/2006 mix

2006-02-05T06:27:08Z

01. Wintersun - "Winter Madness"
02. Twilightning - "Gone to the Wall"
03. Children of Bodom - "Punch Me I Bleed"
04. Iron Maiden - "Powerslave"
05. Stratovarius - "Speed of Light" (live)
06. In Flames - "Episode 666" (live)
07. Avenged Sevenfold - "Bat Country"
08. Timo Kotipelto - "Kadesh"
09. Epica - "Sensorium"
10. In Flames - "Whoracle"
11. Stratovarius - "Father Time" (live)
12. Sonata Arctica - "Two Minds, One Soul" (Vanishing Point cover)
13. Stratovarius - "Paradise"
14. Bourgeuois - '"Trombone Concerto - Adagio"
15. Timo Kotipelto - "Karhuveljeni Koda"

- M

gunslingerm @ 2006-02-03T12:56:00

2006-02-03T17:58:25Z

Time has come once again for a song. It's no shock it's from Wintersun. Enjoy. Brilliant work.

"Death and the Healing"
A windstorm dropped a bird from the sky
It fell to the ground and it's wings broke and died
But when the time got by, back to sky it flied
'cause the wings healed in time and the bird was I

Time is the death and the healing
Take your last breath, 'cause death is deceiving
Time is the past, now and tomorrow
Days fly so fast and it leaves me so hollow

A snowstorm blew inside a wolf's eyes
and the frozen tears covered all the mountainsides
But then the time got by and the wolf died
and someday that wolf would be I

- M

When we have to go back home again . . . .

2006-01-28T04:32:45Z

Current Music: Wintersun - Wintersun
Current Mood: elated

We'll keep the memories we gained inside our hearts

Things are back to normal! Well, my throat is feeling a lot better, but now I've got a runny nose and sneezing fits (mom says it's my Timo sympathy cold). My room is back to steam room temperature again. And now I'm playing my new CDs! \m/

Yet again, I stayed up until about 4am last night talking to Pahahenki. But, this cold hasn't really made me myself lately and I haven't been a very good conversationalist. I will make up for it, though!

Sleep went well and I woke up in reasonable time. I messed around on the internet and hammered out plans with TK. I got ready in RECORD time today! I didn't even need to listen to "Eternity" while getting ready. And I sang all of "Father Time" in the shower. I even hit Tolkki's parts! I don't think I've ever done that well and I could breathe. I guess in order to sing like the Timos, I need a sinus infection . . .

I had TK play Hatebreeder on the way to the movies. I meant to grab Follow the Reaper, but the covers were identical. But, it was the first time for me to hear the album, too. I already knew at least two songs already and that was fun. The album sounded really great! Granted, we were talking and I wasn't totally immersed in the music, I had a great feeling with it. Janne is just amazing and Alexi has good melodies. Rock the metal! \m/

TK and I watched "Underworld Evolution". That is an excellent movie! I hadn't seen the original in a while, so he and I were sort of asking questions of the other. But all worked out. Is it just me or did Marcus look kind of like Jens? *shrugs* I'm a Lycan fan to the bone, so I guess the nordic thing shines through for me.

You know what's interesting about that movie? There was a sex scene and it was the most tasteful thing I've ever seen. I really, REALLY liked it. (Hahaha, who didn't see that coming?) But, no, really. TK whispered, "Better than Neo and Trinity" and I replied, "Ohhhhh, yeah. That was gross. Plug-ins!" Hahaha. That was a terrible movie, the Matrix sequel. Anyway, I loved this movie! =)

I got home and did very little until Potts called. She was supposed to come out, but I'm sure things got in the way. That's totally cool because I know how you get caught up in things.

Ahhhh, I should have called Kaleb today (or Jess) and I felt like I didn't even have a waking moment all day to do it. But I've got the weekend ahead of me.

Someone on amazon.com reviewed this album and praised the musicianship (it is quite good!), but says it's a disappointment it's all written in the same key. I'm on the third song and it does sort of bleed together. But, you could also look at it from the point of view that it's sort of one piece or a concept album of sorts. Oh, how do I love the concept album!

Staying on the Finnish metal topic, I'm slightly disappointed in Tolkki's album booklet. I never used to care about that stuff until now. The case has a sleeve written in Japanese which is great, but there are a few pictures of him and the thanks list he says will be in the Stratovarius album. I guess if you do two albums a year, it seems redundant to do it all over. If I remember correctly, this album came out with Dreamspace. I'd love to eventually own all of that and maybe some weird little rare things. I also want to start collecting Kotipelto singles. I've got so much work to do! Nuclear Blast should love me right now. =)

Wow, this album is gorgeous. I love it! This was an impulse gift and I am so happy with it! Good grief, it's excellent! For a debut album, these people sure do rock. \m/

As for anything else in life, I have little to say. I'm getting bugged for a birthday list but I really can't think of anything. Christmas was hard enough. I just want Hymn to Life and some knitting supplies, I guess. We know things like that can entertain me for an eternity. =) It'd just be great to see my friends, but it's so awkward this time in the semester to do that. After me, it's Ashley's birthday, so maybe something can be done then.

Stratovarius World Tour 2005 has finally come to a close. I hope the guys had a great reunion and enjoyed the Americas, Europe, Greece, and Asia. This album almost didn't get made, but they worked through it and made one of the greatest group efforts of all Strato history! All of the fans have kept our thoughts and prayers on them over Tolkk's illness, the firings, "knifings, drunken nights and days", and everything else! Once they return to "Fin(e)land", Koti will work on his third solo album, Jens will resume his countless side proejcts, Lauri will be doing all of HIS work, Tolkki should have "Warrior of Light" in the works, and as for Jorg, I'm not sure!

So, congrats to Stratovarius for another great album, an energetic and expansive tour, and sharing the music with the Legions! \m/ \m/

Pictures from their final 2006 show (save festivals!) in Hong Kong.

<3 Timo Kotipelto <3

!!!Timo Tolkki!!! =)

/Jens Johansson/

___Lauri Porra___

| Jorg Michael |

"Forever"

\m/ STRATOVARIUS stand UNITED!!! \m/

- M

Free Fall

2006-01-09T06:21:38Z

Haven't had a song in a while. This one always gets me thinking. I love Swedish melodic death. A toast to In Flames for harsh vocals and thought-provoking lyrics.

"Free Fall"
Mirror Mirror
How far will I go?
Despite the foundation I am falling
Sweet reflection
Will you save a place for me?

Where am I heading?
Could you grant me a haven?
For what?
I am punished could I ever repent?

Mother Nature, I'm wide open
Waiting for you to move me

Don't keep it from me
This is a free fall

I never seem to understand
The time, the place and who I am
Define a way to stay alive
It's like I'm living a lie

Father time every time I stop and feel
You're there to tell me I'm already late

I never seem to understand
The time, the place and who I am
Define a way to stay alive
It's like I'm living a lie

- M

Montanni Semper Liberi

2006-01-04T09:02:18Z

My thoughts, prayers, condolences, and sympathy go out to the families (possible survivor), and employees of the Sago coal mine explosion that occured Monday morning. For the lives we lost, rest in peace. Country roads will take you home. =,(

Montanni Semper Liberi.
Mountaineers [are] Always Free.

- M

Whitney's song game

2005-12-21T04:59:56Z

Stratovarius version of the song game. Put your collection on random and write the first line of 25 songs.

01. It’s 4 in the morning, I’m gazing the sky with millions of stars
02. Late at night I find myself again, wondering and watching TV
03. Another winter day is gone, I’m lying here all alone
04. What the hell is going on? Skijumpers selling music that makes gold
05. “You still wanna hear some more?”
Once again I try to make things work, facing all the power of society
06. Everywhere I go, I see people staring at me
07. (Visions of Europe) Late at night, I find myself again, wondering and watching TV
08. "Stratofortress" instrumental
09. "You still wanna hear some more? How about a song from Visions album?"
Again, I see you standing there watching me. Your gaze, those eyes are tantalizing openly
10. "Atlantis" instrumental
11. Again, I see you standing there, watching me. Your gaze, those eyes are tantalizing openly
12. Danger, danger, the Queen's about to kill, There's a stranger, stranger, and life about to spill
13. Come with me my child, It's gonna take a little while
14. "Stratosphere" instrumental
15. Hey you, take a look around, Can you feel the change begin?
16. Hear my call, Don’t waste your time
17. A new day is rising in ancient Babylon, Revealing mysteries to see
18. I'm walking on thin ice, Lying paralyzed
19. I worked so hard to get my aim, Pulled out the wrong card
20. Hunger grows stronger, feel it day by day
21. I wake up in the morning, so far away from home
22. Sun is shining, sky is so blue
23. A house made of cards, and no time to run
24. Season of change life feels so strange
25. I’m waiting for the rain now, to settle the dusty air

- M

Initially . . .

2005-12-19T00:52:20Z

Current Music: Stratovarius - "Forever Free"
Current Mood: hyper

Oh, I've been sleeping too much. I STILL haven't worked out. I feel like a bad person. But I'm a bad person because of my choices! Or so I tell myself.

So I've got about fifteen minutes to type here. I went shopping today and finished off Val, Jon (hooray!), and my dad, almost. So that's good. I'm pretty much done for good now. All that's left to do is decide when I'm having like, four Christmases . . .

But honestly, the next thing on my plate is to wrap these mothers and watch a special Tom Brokaw report! YES! Life can't get better at this point.

After that, it's guitar/piano/Finnish. Pahahenki sent me a cool site last night that drills you on vocabulary. So far, my strong parts are why, how, they, dog, book, beer, sauna, and home! Koti = home. Pelto = field. Timo Homefield! I'm not kidding. I've known that for a while, though. Someone in the Sonata forum said Tony calls Timo Koti because [Tony] likes wolves and it's like "coyote". But, actually, Timo is just Koti because there's Timo Tolkki and Tolkki is just . . . Tolkki. Or TT, but I hate doing that. I hate the whole TK, TT, JJ, JK (he left, so it's LP), and JM. Too many similar letters! Why can't we just stick to Koti, Tolkki, Jens, Jorg and Lauri? I mean, it's easier. But whatever! I went off on a tangent.

Damn, that was a waste of time right there for most of you who don't care. But I do! I <3 Koti. Hehehe.

My point is I know how to say beer, sauna, book, and home. I'm pretty sure that's all you need to survive in Finland. Someone please correct me if there's more to life than that.

Alright, this song is almost done and it's totally wired me. So it's off to create a wrapping frenzy to TB! I mean, Tom Brokaw.

Rock on, guys. \m/

P.S. My spellcheck hates me. =)

- M

Latest Metal Mix

2005-12-17T06:13:50Z

My latest metal mix, which is basically things I've been meaning to burn off and things Pahahenki sent me. I know the mixing is really, really bad, but I just did it before school one day because I wanted to hear them all. Anyway, here's the magic list:

01. Soilwork - "Rejection Role"
02. Iron Maiden - "Blood Brothers"
03. Children of Bodom - "Angels Don't Kill"
04. Iron Maiden - "The Thin Line Between Love and Hate"
05. In Flames - "December Flower"
06. Iron Maiden - "Brave New World"
07. Soilwork - "Nerve"
08. Klamydia - "Metanol Man"
09. Soilwork - "Observation Slave"
10. Stratovarius - "Hunting High and Low" (Live in Helsinki)
11. Children of Bodom - "Downfall"
12. Soilwork - "Brickwalker"
13. Soilwork - "Overload"
14. Bruce Dickinson - "Tears of the Dragon" (acoustic)

- M

These are the reasons . . .

2005-12-16T18:12:02Z

Current Music: Kotipelto - "Reasons"
Current Mood: optimistic

I've finally recovered from last night. I think I slept too much and ate too little, so now it's time to balance today. I don't feel like working out, though, unfortunately. I need to. I decided I'm going to break my routine in half and work out every day and that way I'll have no way out of it. Arms on one day and back and legs the next day. I can't fail!

So many other things I want and need to do over the break. What I need to do are some projects, Uncle Dave's gifts, finish Christmas shopping (have Christmas), get into the JoA Forum, and clean and organize some things around here. *shudders at massive Koti picture collection*

Some things I want to do are learn Finnish, practice guitar, improve on Piano, and some other random things like projects and such. I really want to make the most of every day. I want the energy back. Oh, and I should probably gain about seven pounds. I'll work on that, too. =)

Thanks to everyone that helped keep me sane this semester. I really think I would have died if it weren't for Ashley, Craig, Whitney, Val, Pahahenki, Becky, and anyone else I forgot. You guys will definitely get props for that. =)

Alright, I think I'm going to eat breakfast then cook to Coldness. After that, it'll be updating and other random things.

I'm out, everybody.

- M